My Father...

is far more liberal than I am. I mean...well don't get me wrong, but his views of the world with 20 or so years ahead of me count. They count alot. Sometimes...and I'm stealing a phrase from my father....we forget to pet the kitty. This goes both ways by the way, ego's are fragile, male or female. I am guilty of this. We forget, not just sex...how to not just say "I love you", but show it also. We forget how much a hug, or holding hands counts. We forget, and get too fucking comfortable. We forget simple things like having lunch or dinner together, holding a door open, helping out around the house.. For all my humanity and personal failures...this is my biggest. I got too fucking comfortable. Add that to my personal trust issues, jealousy and insecurities....this really should have been a no brainer. I fucked up. I know this isn't going to be fixed in a day, any more so than it took a day to damage it. Hell, I don't even know for sure it can be fixed. But..... Whatever it takes, whatever it takes..... I love you Agrah! I want to fix this. I want US to work together to fix this. I love you.